Like Anthony Bourdain says, cooks are pirates. More on this later. P.S. this is Kyle we’ve cooked together in many kitchens, he’s my wing man. He’s moving to europe soon and I am sad.

The Fear is something Kyle made up. It is when you are in the middle of the rush and you lose track of what you are doing and then you just panic and start firing food, then once it’s all over you have so much extra cooked food on your station that you look like an idiot. The most common time and place for this was on the Feenie’s grill station, the “burger rush” would hit and the guy next to the printer that prints the orders would look at you and yell, “start firing burgers!!!!!”. At the end of it all Kyle would walk over and say, “look at your station, look how many extra fries you have left over, look at those burgers, you got the fear didn’t you.”  And then we would laugh and laugh and eat the burgers, but I would try not to get the fear next time. One time I got the risotto fear, so much risotto.

p.s. I think that Bailey from WKRP is pretty

I think I’m okay. I lost my digital camera and my MIND!!! Just joking. December has been hard though, that’s why there have not been many posts. I have to call times on tables because I’m on meats (meat takes the longest to cook so when a table orders I say how long before we bring all the food to the pass to be plated. I haven’t been cooking very long compared to all the guys and girls that I work with so I try and sound confident when I call each time like, “6 minutes on the pass!” but most of the time it ends up sounding like, “s-six minutes?”

I haven’t taken any pictures because I fell into a depression. Since I started meats Ben and I have had different days off. We haven’t had a day off together in 2 months. Also at work we have been prepping for endless parties of 40 people, 75 people, ect. all special menus or canapes or buyouts. Communication between everyone, front and back of house is poor so we are all in a constant state of trying to keep it together and organized. Meats is slow and steady just alot of planning and big jobs to stay on top of the big parties. The pig comes tomorrow and it is going to be a big job. I am very tired and depressed, and until a few days ago I’ve just been working and drinking. Today I realized that I haven’t talked to any of my cook friends in a while because they are also getting killed by the holiday rush. I’m trying to excersise and eat properly (take vitamins) to help my mood. it is working a little. Lots of work very sad and tired, drinking sherry.